Our Story.

Well, where do I begin??  As you will find in the blog I am very open about our lives.  No we are not perfect and have made mistakes down the road but then again who is....so here we go.  Nick and I married 6 1/2 years ago.  I knew long before our marriage that I wanted children...I've always loved children.  So about a year after we were married we agreed to start trying the "natural" way.  Well a year turned into 2...then 3...then 4....then 5....and now here we are.  We've seen several doctors, heard lots of advise (some good and bad), and even had some procedures but needless did we know God had other plans for soon to be little family.  After 4 1/2 years of trying we were finally PREGNANT!!!! Excited was not the word...I was one top of the world.  But, I soon began to have problems and at 5 1/2 weeks we lost our sweet little innocent baby.  I did not realize you could love someone so much you had never met.  Devistated was not the word; I can't begin to describe feelings we expereincing individually and as a couple.  Well of course the doctors all said "don't give up...it will happen again...it's a great sign you can get pregnant."  So I tried to remain positive. The days seem to pass more quickly and before we knew it 6 months had passed and there I was PRENGANT AGAIN.  Well of course this time I tried to protect my heart but there is just no hiding the love a mother has a for her child (even if is unborn).  Well as you can guess within a few weeks here we were having problems again.  I tried to remain positive but as a nurse practitioner I soon realized the road we were headed down again. At 8 1/2 weeks I miscarried again but this time there were complications associated with the miscarriage and I found myself admitted to the hospital and in surgery on a Saturday night.The 2nd loss was even more devistating than the first but by God's grace we have survived.  The holdiays were hard but with the love of our family and friends we made it through.  So.....here we are.  Through much prayer and debate about our next steps in our adventure to be parents here we are feeling called to ADOPT.  The next few weeks will be mindblowing with lots of decisions to make but with God on our side we can do ALL things.  I promise to keep you update in our journey and ask that you remember us in prayer as we make this big step.

Love to all,
Phyllis